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Liber Liberi Vel Lapis Lazuli, Adumbratio Kabbalae
LIBER LIBERI VEL LAPIDIS LAZULI
ADUMBRATIO KABBALAE AEGYPTIORUM
SUB FIGURE VII
PROLOGUE OF THE UNBORN
1. Into my loneliness comes
2. The sound of a flute in dim groves that haunt the uttermost
3. Even from the brave river they reach to the edge of the
4. And I behold Pan.
5. The snows are eternal above, above
6. And their perfume smokes upward into the nostrils of the
7. But what have I to do with these?
8. To me only the distant flute, the abiding vision of Pan.
9. On all sides Pan to the eye, to the ear;
10. The perfume of Pan pervading, the taste of him utterly filling
my mouth, so that the tongue breaks forth into a weird and
11. The embrace of him intense on every centre of pain and
12. The sixth interior sense aflame with the inmost self of Him,
13. Myself flung down the precipice of being
14. Even to the abyss, annihilation.
15. An end to loneliness, as to all.
16. Pan! Pan! Io Pan! Io Pan!
1. My God, how I love Thee!
2. With the vehement appetite of a beast I hunt Thee through the
3. Thou art standing as it were upon a pinnacle at the edge of
some fortified city. I am a white bird, and perch upon Thee.
4. Thou art My Lover: I see Thee as a nymph with her white limbs
stretched by the spring.
5. She lies upon the moss; there is none other but she:
6. Art Thou not Pan?
7. I am He. Speak not, O my God! Let the work be accomplished
8. Let my cry of pain be crystallized into a little white fawn to
run away into the forest!
9. Thou art a centaur, O my God, from the violet-blossoms that
crown Thee to the hoofs of the horse.
10. Thou art harder than tempered steel; there is no diamond
11. Did I not yield this body and soul?
12. I woo thee with a dagger drawn across my throat.
13. Let the spout of blood quench Thy blood-thirst, O my God!
14. Thou art a little white rabbit in the burrow Night.
15. I am greater than the fox and the hole.
16. Give me Thy kisses, O Lord God!
17. The lightning came and licked up the little flock of sheep.
18. There is a tongue and a flame; I see that trident walking over
19. A phoenix hath it for its head; below are two prongs. They
spear the wicked.
20. I will spear Thee, O Thou little grey god, unless Thou beware!
21. From the grey to the gold; from the gold to that which is
beyond the gold of Ophir.
22. My God! but I love Thee!
23. Why hast Thou whispered so ambiguous things? Wast Thou
afraid, O goat-hoofed One, O horned One, O pillar of
24. From the lightning fall pearls; from the pearls black specks
25. I based all on one, one on naught.
26. Afloat in the aether, O my God, my God!
27. O Thou great hooded sun of glory, cut off these eyelids!
28. Nature shall die out; she hideth me, closing mine eyelids with
fear, she hideth me from My destruction, O Thou open eye.
29. O ever-weeping One!
30. Not Isis my mother, nor Osiris my self; but the incestuous
Horus given over to Typhon, so may I be!
31. There thought; and thought is evil.
32. Pan! Pan! Io Pan! it is enough.
33. Fall not into death, O my soul! Think that death is the bed
into which you are falling!
34. O how I love Thee, O my God! Especially is there a vehement
parallel light from infinity, vilely diffracted in the haze of
35. I love Thee.
I love Thee.
I love Thee.
36. Thou art a beautiful thing whiter than a woman in the column
of this vibration.
37. I shoot up vertically like an arrow, and become that Above.
38. But it is death, and the flame of the pyre.
39. Ascend in the flame of the pyre, O my soul! Thy God is like
the cold emptiness of the utmost heaven, into which thou
radiatest thy little light.
40. When Thou shall know me, O empty God, my flame shall utterly
expire in Thy great N.O.X.
41. What shalt Thou be, my God, when I have ceased to love Thee?
42. A worm, a nothing, a niddering knave!
43. But Oh! I love Thee.
44. I have thrown a million flowers from the basket of the Beyond
at Thy feet, I have anointed Thee and Thy Staff with oil and
blood and kisses.
45. I have kindled Thy marble into lifeay! into death.
46. I have been smitten with the reek of Thy mouth, that drinketh
never wine but life.
47. How the dew of the Universe whitens the lips!
48. Ah! trickling flow of the stars of the mother Supernal,
49. I Am She that should come, the Virgin of all men.
50. I am a boy before Thee, O Thou satyr God.
51. Thou wilt inflict the punishment of pleasureNow! Now! Now!
52. Io Pan! Io Pan! I love Thee. I love Thee.
53. O my God, spare me!
It is done! Death.
55. I cried aloud the word - and it was a mighty spell to bind the
Invisible, an enchantment to unbind the bound; yea, to unbind
1. O my God! use Thou me again, alway. For ever! For ever!
2. That which came fire from Thee cometh water from me; let
therefore Thy Spirit lay hold on me, so that my right hand
loose the lightning.
3. Travelling through space, I saw the onrush of two galaxies,
butting each other and goring like bulls upon earth. I was
4. Thus they ceased fight, and turned upon me, and I was sorely
crushed and torn.
5. I had rather have been trampled by the World-Elephant.
6. O my God! Thou art my little pet tortoise!
7. Yet Thou sustainest the World-Elephant.
8. I creep under Thy carapace, like a lover into the bed of his
beautiful; I creep in, and sit in Thine heart, as cubby and
cosy as may be.
9. Thou shelterest me, that I hear not the trumpeting of that
10. Thou art not worth an obol in the agora; yet Thou art not to
be bought at the ransom of the whole Universe.
11. Thou art like a beautiful Nubian slave leaning her naked
purple against the green pillars of marble that are above the
12. Wine jets from her black nipples.
13. I drank wine awhile agone in the house of Pertinax. The cup-
boy favoured me, and gave me of the right sweet Chian.
14. There was a Doric boy, skilled in feats of strength, an
athlete. The full moon fled away angrily down the wrack.
Ah! but we laughed.
15. I was pernicious drunk, O my God! Yet Pertinax brought me to
16. I had a crown of thorns for all my dower.
17. Thou art like a goat's horn from Astor, O Thou God of mine,
gnarl'd and crook'd and devilish strong.
18. Colder than all the ice of all the glaciers of the Naked
Mountain was the wine it poured for me.
19. A wild country and a waning moon.
Clouds scudding over the sky.
A circuit of pines, and of tall yews beyond. Thou in the
20. O all ye toads and cats, rejoice! Ye slimy things, come
21. Dance, dance to the Lord our God!
22. He is he! He is he! He is he!
23. Why should I go on?
24. Why? Why? comes the sudden cackle of a million imps of hell.
25. And the laughter runs.
26. But sickens not the Universe; but shakes not the stars.
27. God! how I love Thee!
28. I am walking in an asylum; all the men and women about me are
29. Oh madness! madness! madness! desirable art thou!
30. But I love Thee, O God!
31. These men and women rave and howl; they froth out folly.
32. I begin to be afraid. I have no check; I am alone. Alone.
33. Think, O God, how I am happy in Thy love.
34. O marble Pan! O false leering face! I love Thy dark kisses,
bloody and stinking! O marble Pan! Thy kisses are like
sunlight on the blue gean; their blood is the blood of the
sunset over Athens; their stink is like a garden of Roses of
35. I dreamt of sunset and roses and vines; Thou wast there, O my
God, Thou didst habit Thyself as an Athenian courtesan, and I
36. Thou art no dream, O Thou too beautiful alike for sleep and
37. I disperse the insane folk of the earth; I walk alone with my
little puppets in the garden.
38. I am Gargantuan great; yon galaxy is but the smoke-ring of
39. Burn Thou strange herbs, O God!
40. Brew me a magic liquor, boys, with your glances!
41. The very soul is drunken.
42. Thou art drunken, O my God, upon my kisses.
43. The Universe reels; Thou hast looked upon it.
44. Twice, and all is done.
45. Come, O my God, and let us embrace!
46. Lazily, hungrily, ardently, patiently; so will I work.
47. There shall be an End.
48. O God! O God!
49. I am a fool to love Thee; Thou art cruel, Thou withholdest
50. Come to me now! I love Thee! I love Thee!
51. O my darling, my darlingKiss me! Kiss me! Ah! but again.
52. Sleep, take me! Death, take me! This life is too full; it
pains, it slays, it suffices.
53. Let me go back into the world; yea, back into the world.
1. I was the priest of Ammon-Ra in the temple of Ammon-Ra at
2. But Bacchus came singing with his troops of vine-clad girls,
of girls in dark mantles; and Bacchus in the midst like a
3. God! how I ran out in my rage and scattered the chorus!
4. But in my temple stood Bacchus as the priest of Ammon-Ra.
5. Therefore I went wildly with the girls into Abyssinia; and
there we abode and rejoiced.
6. Exceedingly; yea, in good sooth!
7. I will eat the ripe and the unripe fruit for the glory of
8. Terraces of ilex, and tiers of onyx and opal and sardonyx
leading up to the cool green porch of malachite.
9. Within is a crystal shell, shaped like an oyster - O glory of
Priapus! O beatitude of the Great Goddess!
10. Therein is a pearl.
11. O Pearl! thou hast come from the majesty of dread Ammon-Ra.
12. Then I the priest beheld a steady glitter in the heart of the
13. So bright we could not look! But behold! a blood-red rose
upon a rood of glowing gold!
14. So I adored the God. Bacchus! thou art the lover of my God!
15. I who was priest of Ammon-Ra, who saw the Nile flow by for
many moons, for many, many moons, am the young fawn of the
16. I will set up my dance in your conventicles, and my secret
loves shall be sweet among you.
17. Thou shalt have a lover among the lords of the grey land.
18. This shall he bring unto thee, without which all is in vain; a
man's life spilt for thy love upon My Altars.
20. Let it be soon, O God, my God! I ache for Thee, I wander very
lonely among the mad folk, in the grey land of desolation.
21. Thou shalt set up the abominable lonely Thing of wickedness.
Oh joy! to lay that corner-stone!
22. It shall stand erect upon the high mountain; only my God shall
commune with it.
23. I will build it of a single ruby; it shall be seen from afar
24. Come! let us irritate the vessels of the earth: they shall
distil strange wine.
25. It grows under my hand: it shall cover the whole heaven.
26. Thou art behind me: I scream with a mad joy.
27. Then said Ithuriel the strong; let Us also worship this
28. So did they, and the archangels swept over the heaven.
29. Strange and mystic, like a yellow priest invoking mighty
flights of great grey birds from the North, so do I stand and
30. Let them obscure not the sun with their wings and their
31. Take away form and its following!
32. I am still.
33. Thou art like an osprey among the rice, I am the great red
pelican in the sunset waters.
34. I am like a black eunuch; and Thou art the scimitar. I smite
off the head of the light one, the breaker of bread and salt.
35. Yea! I smiteand the blood makes as it were a sunset on the
lapis lazuli of the King's Bedchamber.
36. I smite. The whole world is broken up into a mighty wind, and
a voice cries aloud in a tongue that men cannot speak.
37. I know that awful sound of primal joy; let us follow on the
wings of the gale even unto the holy house of Hathor; let us
offer the five jewels of the cow upon her altar!
38. Again the inhuman voice!
39. I rear my Titan bulk into the teeth of the gale, and I smite
and prevail, and swing me out over the sea.
40. There is a strange pale God, a god of pain and deadly
41. My own soul bites into itself, like a scorpion ringed with
42. That pallid God with face averted, that God of subtlety and
laughter, that young Doric God, him will I serve.
43. For the end thereof is torment unspeakable.
44. Better the loneliness of the great grey sea!
45. But ill befall the folk of the grey land, my God!
46. Let me smother them with my roses!
47. Oh Thou delicious God, smile sinister!
48. I pluck Thee, O my God, like a purple plum upon a sunny tree.
How Thou dost melt in my mouth, Thou consecrated sugar of the
49. The world is all grey before mine eyes; it is like an old worn
50. All the wine of it is on these lips.
51. Thou hast begotten me upon a marble Statue, O my God!
52. The body is icy cold with the coldness of a million moons; it
is harder than the adamant of eternity. How shall I come
forth into the light?
53. Thou art He, O God! O my darling! my child! my plaything!
Thou art like a cluster of maidens, like a multitude of swans
upon the lake.
54. I feel the essence of softness.
55. I am hard and strong and male; but come Thou! I shall be soft
and weak and feminine.
56. Thou shalt crush me in the wine-press of Thy love. My blood
shall stain Thy fiery feet with litanies of Love in Anguish.
57. There shall be a new flower in the fields, a new vintage in
58. The bees shall gather a new honey; the poets shall sing a new
59. I shall gain the Pain of the Goat for my prize; and the God
that sitteth upon the shoulders of Time shall drowse.
60. Then shall all this which is written be accomplished: yea, it
shall be accomplished.
1. I am like a maiden bathing in a clear pool of fresh water.
2. O my God! I see Thee dark and desirable, rising through the
water as a golden smoke.
3. Thou art altogether golden, the hair and the eyebrows and the
brilliant face; even into the finger-tips and toe-tips Thou
art one rosy dream of gold.
4. Deep into Thine eyes that are golden my soul leaps, like an
archangel menacing the sun.
5. My sword passes through and through Thee; crystalline moons
ooze out of Thy beautiful body that is hidden behind the ovals
of Thine eyes.
6. Deeper, ever deeper. I fall, even as the whole Universe falls
down the abyss of Years.
7. For Eternity calls; the Overworld calls; the world of the Word
is awaiting us.
8. Be done with speech, O God! Fasten the fangs of the hound
Eternity in this my throat!
9. I am like a wounded bird flapping in circles.
10. Who knows where I shall fall?
11. O blessed One! O God! O my devourer!
12. Let me fall, fall down, fall away, afar, alone!
13. Let me fall!
14. Nor is there any rest, Sweet Heart, save in the cradle of
royal Bacchus, the thigh of the most Holy One.
15. There rest, under the canopy of night.
16. Uranus chid Eros; Marsyas chid Olympas; I chid my beautiful
lover with his sunray mane; shall I not sing?
17. Shall not mine incantations bring around me the wonderful
company of the wood-gods, their bodies glistening with the
ointment of moonlight and honey and myrrh?
18. Worshipful are ye, O my lovers; let us forward to the dimmest
19. There we will feast upon mandrake and upon moly!
20. There the lovely One shall spread us His holy banquet. In the
brown cakes of corn we shall taste the food of the world, and
21. In the ruddy and awful cup of death we shall drink the blood
of the world, and be drunken!
22. Ohe! the song to Iao, the song to Iao!
23. Come, let us sing to thee, Iacchus invisible, Iacchus
triumphant, Iacchus indicible!
24. Iacchus, O Iacchus, O Iacchus, be near us!
25. Then was the countenance of all time darkened, and the true
light shone forth.
26. There was also a certain cry in an unknown tongue, whose
stridency troubled the still waters of my soul, so that my
mind and my body were healed of their disease, self-knowledge.
27. Yea, an angel troubled the waters.
28. This was the cry of Him: IIIOOShBThIO-IIIIAMAMThIBI-II.
29. Nor did I sing this for a thousand times a night for a
thousand nights before Thou camest, O my flaming God, and
pierced me with Thy spear. Thy scarlet robe unfolded the
whole heavens, so that the Gods said: All is burning: it is
30. Also Thou didst set Thy lips to the wound and suck out a
million eggs. And Thy mother sat upon them, and lo! stars
and stars and ultimate Things whereof stars are the atoms.
31. Then I perceived Thee, O my God, sitting like a white cat upon
the trellis-work of the arbour; and the hum of the spinning
worlds was but Thy pleasure.
32. O white cat, the sparks fly from Thy fur! Thou dost crackle
with splitting the worlds.
33. I have seen more of Thee in the white cat than I saw in the
Vision of Aeons.
34. In the boat of Ra did I travel, but I never found upon the
visible Universe any being like unto Thee!
35. Thou wast like a winged white horse, and I raced Thee through
eternity against the Lord of the Gods.
36. So still we race!
37. Thou wast like a flake of snow falling in the pine-clad woods.
38. In a moment Thou wast lost in a wilderness of the like and the
39. But I beheld the beautiful God at the back of the blizzard
- and Thou wast He!
40. Also I read in a great book.
41. On ancient skin was written in letters of gold: Verbum fit
42. Also Vitriol and the hierophant's name
43. All this wheeled in fire, in star-fire, rare and far and
utterly lonely - even as Thou and I, O desolate soul my God!
44. Yea, and the writing
(There is an illustration here. ed.)
It is well.
This is the voice which shook the earth.
45. Eight times he cried aloud, and by eight and by eight shall I
count Thy favours, Oh Thou Elevenfold God 418!
46. Yea, and by many more; by the ten in the twenty-two
directions; even as the perpendicular of the Pyramidso shall
Thy favours be.
47. If I number them, they are One.
48. Excellent is Thy love, Oh Lord! Thou art revealed by the
darkness, and he who gropeth in the horror of the groves shall
haply catch Thee, even as a snake that seizeth on a little
49. I have caught Thee, O my soft thrush; I am like a hawk
of mother-of-emerald; I catch Thee by instinct, though my eyes
fail from Thy glory.
50. Yet they are but foolish folk yonder. I see them on the
yellow sand, all clad in Tyrian purple.
51. They draw their shining God unto the land in nets; they build
a fire to the Lord of Fire, and cry unhallowed words, even the
dreadful curse Amri maratza, maratza, atman deona lastadza
maratza maritzamara - maran!
52. Then do they cook the shining god, and gulp him whole.
53. These are evil folk, O beautiful boy! let us pass on to the
54. Let us make ourselves into a pleasant bait, into a
55. I will be like a splendid naked woman with ivory breasts and
golden nipples; my whole body shall be like the milk of the
stars. I will be lustrous and Greek, a courtesan of
Delos, of the unstable Isle.
56. Thou shalt be like a little red worm on a hook.
57. But thou and I will catch fish alike.
58. Then wilt thou be a shining fish with golden back and silver
belly: I will be like a violent beautiful man, stronger than
two score bulls, a man of the West bearing a great sack of
precious jewels upon a staff that is greater than the
axis of the all.
59. And the fish shall be sacrificed to Thee and the strong man
crucified for Me, and Thou and I will kiss, and atone for the
wrong of the Beginning; yea, for the wrong of the beginning.
1. O my beautiful God! I swim in Thy heart like a trout in the
2. I leap from pool to pool in my joy; I am goodly with brown and
gold and silver.
3. Why, I am lovelier than the russet autumn woods at the first
4. And the crystal cave of my thought is lovelier than I.
5. Only one fish-hook can draw me out; it is a woman kneeling by
the bank of the stream. It is she that pours the bright dew
over herself, and into the sand so that the river gushes
6. There is a bird on yonder myrtle; only the song of that bird
can draw me out of the pool of Thy heart, O my God!
7. Who is this Neapolitan boy that laughs in his happiness? His
lover is the mighty crater of the Mountain of Fire. I saw his
charred limbs borne down the slopes in a stealthy tongue of
8. And Oh! the chirp of the cicada!
9. I remember the days when I was cacique in Mexico.
10. O my God, wast Thou then as now my beautiful lover?
11. Was my boyhood then as now Thy toy, Thy joy?
12. Verily, I remember those iron days.
13. I remember how we drenched the bitter lakes with our torrent
of gold; how we sank the treasurable image in the crater of
14. How the good flame lifted us even unto the lowlands, setting
us down in the impenetrable forest.
15. Yea, Thou wast a strange scarlet bird with a bill of gold. I
was Thy mate in the forests of the lowland; and ever we heard
from afar the shrill chant of mutilated priests and the insane
clamour of the Sacrifice of Maidens.
16. There was a weird winged God that told us of his wisdom.
17. We attained to be starry grains of gold dust in the sands of a
18. Yea, and that river was the river of space and time also.
19. We parted thence; ever to the smaller, ever to the greater,
until now, O sweet God, we are ourselves, the same.
20. O God of mine, Thou art like a little white goat with
lightning in his horns!
21. I love Thee, I love Thee.
22. Every breath, every word, every thought, every deed is an act
of love with Thee.
23. The beat of my heart is the pendulum of love.
24. The songs of me are the soft sighs:
25. The thoughts of me are very rapture:
26. And my deeds are the myriads of Thy children, the stars and
27. Let there be nothing!
28. Let all things drop into this ocean of love!
29. Be this devotion a potent spell to exorcise the demons of the
30. Ah God, all is gone! Thou dost consummate Thy rapture.
31. There is a solemnity of the silence. There is no more voice
32. So shall it be unto the end. We who were dust shall never
fall away into the dust.
33. So shall it be.
34. Then, O my God, the breath of the Garden of Spices. All these
have a savour averse.
35. The cone is cut with an infinite ray; the curve of hyperbolic
life springs into being.
36. Farther and farther we float; yet we are still. It is the
chain of systems that is falling away from us.
37. First falls the silly world; the world of the old grey land.
38. Falls it unthinkably far, with its sorrowful bearded face
presiding over it; it fades to silence and woe.
39. We to silence and bliss, and the face is the laughing face of
40. Smiling we greet him with the secret signs.
41. He leads us into the Inverted Palace.
42. There is the Heart of Blood, a pyramid reaching its apex down
beyond the Wrong of the Beginning.
43. Bury me unto Thy Glory, O beloved, O princely lover of this
harlot maiden, within the Secretest Chamber of the Palace!
44. It is done quickly; yea, the seal is set upon the vault.
45. There is one that shall avail to open it.
46. Nor by memory, nor by imagination, nor by prayer, nor by
fasting, nor by scourging, nor by drugs, nor by ritual, nor by
meditation; only by passive love shall he avail.
47. He shall await the sword of the Beloved and bare his throat
for the stroke.
48. Then shall his blood leap out and write me runes in the sky;
yea, write me runes in the sky.
1. Thou wast a priestess, O my God, among the Druids; and we knew
the powers of the oak.
2. We made us a temple of stones in the shape of the Universe,
even as thou didst wear openly and I concealed.
3. There we performed many wonderful things by midnight. 4. By
the waning moon did we work.
5. Over the plain came the atrocious cry of wolves.
6. We answered; we hunted with the pack.
7. We came even unto the new Chapel and Thou didst bear away the
Holy Graal beneath Thy Druid vestments.
8. Secretly and by stealth did we drink of the informing
9. Then a terrible disease seized upon the folk of the grey land;
and we rejoiced.
10. O my God, disguise Thy glory!
11. Come as a thief, and let us steal away the Sacraments!
12. In our groves, in our cloistral cells, in our honeycomb of
happiness, let us drink, let us drink!
13. It is the wine that tinges everything with the true tincture
of infallible gold.
14. There are deep secrets in these songs. It is not enough to
hear the bird; to enjoy song he must be the bird.
15. I am the bird, and Thou art my song, O my glorious galloping
16. Thou reinest in the stars; thou drivest the constellations
seven abreast through the circus of Nothingness.
17. Thou Gladiator God!
18. I play upon mine harp; Thou fightest the beasts and the
19. Thou takest Thy joy in the music, and I in the fighting.
20. Thou and I are beloved of the Emperor.
21. See! he has summoned us to the Imperial dais.
The night falls; it is a great orgy of worship and bliss.
22. The night falls like a spangled cloak from the shoulders of a
prince upon a slave.
23. He rises a free man!
24. Cast thou, O prophet, the cloak upon these slaves!
25. A great night, and scarce fires therein; but freedom for the
slave that its glory shall encompass.
26. So also I went down into the great sad city.
27. There dead Messalina bartered her crown for poison from the
dead Locusta; there stood Caligula, and smote the seas of
28. Who wast Thou, O Caesar, that Thou knewest God in an horse?
29. For lo! we beheld the White Horse of the Saxon engraven upon
the earth; and we beheld the Horses of the Sea that flame
about the old grey land, and the foam from their nostrils
30. Ah! but I love thee, God!
31. Thou art like a moon upon the ice-world.
32. Thou art like the dawn of the utmost snows upon the burnt-up
flats of the tiger's land.
33. By silence and by speech do I worship Thee.
34. But all is in vain.
35. Only Thy silence and Thy speech that worship me avail.
36. Wail, O ye folk of the grey land, for we have drunk your wine,
and left ye but the bitter dregs.
37. Yet from these we will distil ye a liquor beyond the nectar of
38. There is value in our tincture for a world of Spice and gold.
39. For our red powder of projection is beyond all possibilities.
40. There are few men; there are enough.
41. We shall be full of cup-bearers, and the wine is not stinted.
42. O dear my God! what a feast Thou hast provided.
43. Behold the lights and the flowers and the maidens!
44. Taste of the wines and the cates and the splendid meats!
45. Breathe in the perfumes and the clouds of little gods like
wood-nymphs that inhabit the nostrils!
46. Feel with your whole body the glorious smoothness of the
marble coolth and the generous warmth of the sun and the
47. Let the Invisible inform all the devouring Light of its
48. Yea! all the world is split apart, as an old grey tree by the
49. Come, O ye gods, and let us feast.
50. Thou, O my darling, O my ceaseless Sparrow-God, my delight, my
desire, my deceiver, come Thou and chirp at my right hand!
51. This was the tale of the memory of Al A'in the priest; yea, of
Al A'in the priest.
1. By the burning of the incense was the Word revealed, and by
the distant drug.
2. O meal and honey and oil! O beautiful flag of the moon, that
she hangs out in the center of bliss!
3. These loosen the swathings of the corpse; these unbind the
feet of Osiris, so that the flaming God may rage through the
firmament with his fantastic spear.
4. But of pure black marble is the sorry statue, and the
changeless pain of the eyes is bitter to the blind.
5. We understand the rapture of that shaken marble, torn by the
throes of the crowned child, the golden rod of the golden God.
6. We know why all is hidden in the stone, within the coffin,
within the mighty sepulchre, and we too answer Olalam! Imal!
Tutulu! as it is written in the ancient book.
7. Three words of that book are as life to a new aeon; no god has
read the whole.
8. But thou and I, O God, have written it page by page.
9. Ours is the elevenfold reading of the Elevenfold word.
10. These seven letters together make seven diverse words; each
word is divine, and seven sentences are hidden therein.
11. Thou art the Word, O my darling, my lord, my master.
12. O come to me, mix the fire and the water, all shall disolve.
13. I await Thee in sleeping. I invoke Thee no more; for Thou art
in me, O Thou who hast made me a beautiful instrument tuned to
14. Yet art Thou ever apart, even as I.
15. I remember a certain holy day in the dusk of the year, in the
dusk of the Equinox of Osiris, when first I beheld Thee
visibly; when first the dreadful issue was fought out; when
the Ibis-headed One charmed away the strife.
16. I remember Thy first kiss, even as a maiden should. Nor in
the dark byways was there another; Thy kisses abide.
17. There is none other beside Thee in the whole Universe of Love.
18. My God, I love Thee, O Thou goat with gilded horns!
19. Thou beautiful bull of Apis! Thou beautiful serpent of
Apep! Thou beautiful child of the Pregnant Goddess!
20. Thou hast stirred in Thy sleep, O ancient sorrow of years!
Thou hast raised Thine head to strike, and all is dissolved
into the Abyss of Glory.
21. An end to the letters of the words! An end to the sevenfold
22. Resolve me the wonder of it all into the figure of a gaunt
swift camel, striding over the sand.
23. Lonely is he, and abominable; yet hath he gained the crown.
24. Oh rejoice! rejoice!
25. My God! Oh my God! I am but a speck in the star-dust of
ages; I am the Master of the Secret of Things.
26. I am the Revealer and the Preparer. Mine is the Sword - and
and the Mitre and the Winged Wand!
27. I am the Initiator and the Destroyer. Mine is the Globe - and
the Bennu Bird and the Lotus of Isis my daughter!
28. I am the One beyond these all; and I bear the symbols of the
29. They shall be a sigil as of a vast black brooding ocean of
death and the central blaze of darkness, radiating it's night
30. It shall swallow up that lesser darkness.
31. But in that profound who shall answer: What is?
32. Not I.
33. Not Thou, Oh God!
34. Come, let us no more reason together; let us enjoy! Let us
be ourselves, silent, unique, apart.
35. O lonely woods of the world! In what recesses will ye hide
36. The forest of the spears of the Most High is called Night, and
Hades, and the Day of Wrath; but I am His captain, and I bear
37. Fear me not with my spearmen! They shall slay the demons with
their petty prongs. Ye shall be free.
38. Ah, slaves! ye will not - ye know not how to will.
39. Yet the music of my spears shall be a song of freedom.
40. A great bird shall sweep from the Abyss of Joy, and bear ye
away to be my cup-bearers.
41. Come, O my God, in one last rapture let us attain to the Union
with the Many!
42. In the silence of Things, in the Night of Forces, beyond the
accursed domain of the Three, let us enjoy our love!
43. My darling! My darling! away, away, beyond the Assembly and
the Law and the Enlightenment unto an Anarchy of Solitude and
44. For even thus must we veil the brilliance of our Self.
45. My darling! My darling!
46. O my God, but the love in Me bursts over the bonds of Space
and Time; my love is split among them that love not love.
47. My wine is poured out for them that never tasted wine.
48. The fumes thereof shall intoxicate them and the vigour of my
love shall breed mighty children from their maidens.
49. Yeah! without draught, without embrace: - and the Voice
answered Yea! these things shall be.
50. Then I sought a Word for Myself; nay, for myself.
51. And the Word came: O Thou! it is well. Heed naught.
I love Thee! I love Thee!
52. Therefore had I faith unto the end of all; yea, unto the end
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